I've just spent a week insanely updating my website. I used to just put up productions. You know, things that mean something commercially. But they happen rarely, and every time I looked at my website it felt like I have absolutely no creative output.
Which I know isn't true!
I just don't have all that much commercial creative output. Although I do have a damn site more than a lot of people who write musicals, and for that I am most grateful, don't get me wrong. It's just that I really do spend most of my working life writing musicals. I really do. I know! It's crazy! But to spend so much time doing it, and have so little to show for it just felt creatively draining.
Then I discovered Devoted & Disgruntled, and I experienced Open Space Technology in a creative instead of corporate environment, and suddenly I'm free.
So you will now find that my website is full of stuff. Half-finished stuff. Stuff in planning. Stuff I'm pretty sure I'll never get the chance to do, but I love the idea so I'm putting it out there.
In full! Some stuff in full! Because being afraid someone else will nick your idea is such a draining thing to feel, and so is being afraid to show something only half-discovered, and so is being afraid that if you try to explain what excites you, you'll sound like a schmuck because everyone else knew it all ten years ago.
Biggest of all boring and tiring things is this one: being afraid that you had one good idea, and will never have another one, ever again, so you need to hold onto that one so tightly that it can't breathe, and you can't breathe. (And then don't breathe, in case anyone hears you.)
You know - those things. They're boring, tiring, and not for me. I always knew they weren't for me, but I thought I was alone in that. And now I know I'm not. Thanks, D&D.
Also new: I'm about to blog something that sprang from D&D, but it's not linear so I've been trying to think of ways to blog it in this linear format. I've decided that links are the answer, so I'm going to create a web of links between small posts.
I encourage anyone who is a member of the D&D ning to copy/paste things into the forum there, link back to it and start a discussion if it sparks something for you. I encourage anyone who isn't a member of the D&D ning to go join!
I welcome open discussion in an open forum. One-on-one discussion is better face-to-face for me, so I'll probably be rubbish if you email me directly. But join the ning!
